Bad Year

Valentine's Day was bad.

Last month was bad.

Last week was bad. I fell sick on Wednesday, and my flu has proceeded to a cough. And still here to stay.

Yesterday was bad.

I fell down at the ice rink. TWICE. It's been ages since I last fell that hard.

First time, some small kid kicked my skates from the back, and I fell real hard. As my hook (used for lacing up my skates was in my left back pocket, my ass hurt-ed big time)。

Second time I fell, I was learning how to do the hocket glide. I lost balance and fell the same spot again. It really hurts and I expected my ass to bruise and true enough, it did.

Saw a small bruise later that night and gosh, does it hurt. Sitting at the Chinese restaurant for dinner after skating was like sitting on needles.

Argued with my mum again. I don't wanna go in to details cuz it's the same old boring shit.

Argued with my friend this morning over our birthdays. What a sweet topic to argue about.

He says I forgot his birthday. Actual fact is I was asleep by 10-ish cuz I was sick and tired. Claims I'm acting distant, cold and aloof towards him when I'm like half-dead from work every other day due to flu and stupid weather.

He made it sound like I forced him to get flowers for my birthday when I did not.

Yeah, I'm an insensitive person, so don't come and tell me you're down and depressed because I'm not the type that will be able to help solve your problems.

Yes, I get a lot of loving from other people and that's because people choose to sayang me because I'm a girl, they want me to be their gf or get in my pants or whatever, BUT that doesn't means that I have to rely on GUYS/MALES to get me what I want (especially on my birthday or whatever festive occasion).

So what if they like me? The world still doesn't revolves around me, I still don't get whatever I want.

I'm a working adult, I can afford my own spendings and I don't need you to get it from me. Getting something for me is out of your own free will and don't come running towards me with tears on your face because some thing don't go your way.

I am honoured that you decided to vent your anger on me amongst all your friends but I think sending me SMSes in the middle of the night was not a very considerate thing to do. And you have to realise that SMSes and talking in person makes a lot of difference on the tone of the message.

Maybe it's not me being inconsiderate or insensitive. Maybe, maybe, maybe.

Whatever.

Enjoy.