Valentine's Day
It's a sad doggy year.
V day is so:
Commercialised.
Sucky.
Horrible.
This year's Valentine's Day is one of the worse V Day I've ever had.
I spent V Day, eve and the night before feeling very unhappy about everything.
V Day eve night was spent with a couple of close friends at a mamak, talking about all our love problems. I even cried in the car on my way to there.
I got a bf, but he's not there for me. Physically, mentally, emotionally, whatever-ly.
Technically, this is our first V Day together after being together close to 2 years.
Me, being me, believe that everyday can be Valentine's/Christmas/XYZ festive season if you want it to be. I dun expect you to buy me RM300 (1 dozen) roses on this very day because everybody does it.
I love flowers AND surprises. I really do. You don't have to give me dozens of them every occasion or month. Anytime is fine. One stalk is sufficient. Even if you pick some wildflowers from the side of the road and surprise me with it, I'd be happy too. It's a surprise too.Cuz any day can be our anniversary or V Day if you want it to be.
IF YOU ACTUALLY PUT IN ANY EFFORT AT ALL.
This year, we had dinner on Sunday to avoid the crowd and yada yada, Sunday was the only I got to spend time with him and it wasn't even anywhere near quality time. And he gave me another bracelet. He's given me one last year in June for our one year anniversary.
I'm not complaining about the lack of gifts or whatever.
It's just...just...our relationship.
It's not the way it used to be.
Our relationship is just going down the drain. I don't think we can make things back to the way they were. And it hurts to think so.
I've been in a dilemma for a long time now. I know he is too, somehow. Though he never said anything about it.
Can someone help me/us? I'm so depressed. I've cried for 3 days now.
Enjoy it, depressingly.
4 Comments:
Haha sitting nicely on ur table..N everyday i check my mailbox thinkin it will be there...LPO Box 5615 University of canberra Bruce ACT 2617...Send it tau cos Monday i need it already..N Pls dun sound so depressed la... There are so many things in life tht u can enjoy... Some more u spend 3 days cryin..HMM.. Just make sure u have fun in life if not ur not living life the rite way!! Cheer up...
Oh damn, girl... Why so sad one? Sigh.
You were just trying hard to be strong in front of me huh? I really thought it'd be easy for you to just let go and move on, I mean you seemed like that when I saw you. And you told me so too.
Have you talked to him? Don't let yourself hurt anymore, let go if that's the right thing to do.
I love you so much darling girl, and I'm sad reading your blog. You know I'll be there for you ya, it's just one call away.
Hugs and kisses,
Sab
p/s: Your kor tagged you!!! Go read his blog. =)
dear gal!!its me!1 surprise,surprised!! is it love??ask urself...does love make ppl unhappy??does love leave ppl in dillema??think again dear...i noe u for a long time...i dont think he is suitable for u...i dun have to sweet talk u into it rite??think hard and fast..in a blink of an eye it'll be another valentine's day...and ur unhappy again...then after few unhappy V day...it'll be a commitment ..then wedding bells start ringing ,biological clock start ticking..u'll end up unhappy for the next 50 years's Vdays!!because of this mistake..u let urself to be deprived of a 'real' happy 'any' day! love u alot to see or noe ur suffering!
love always, ee shyn.
Before I send a reply, thanks to all of you who cared so much. I'm touched. Really. Hugs and kisses to you all. Muahh.
Hafidz: Not that I never send it out, not time la dear. Sorry heaps. Will send it tomorrow.
Sab: It's not that I put up a strong front, but the thing is, he's not making any effort to meet up with me. Never even see each other, how to settle problems? I'll call you if I need someone to talk to. Thanks again babes. Huggies.
Ee Shyn: OMG..!! I can't believe you actually left me a comment..!! I'm so surprised and touched. OMG!!! I miss you sooooooooo much...!!! Yeah, I know what you mean and I still remember that talk we had the lastime we met up. OMG, 50 sad V day, dieeee...Okies okies, will settle ASAP. I promise.
Hugs and kisses to all again. I miss all of you guys. Thanks. =)
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